Uninteresting Taste Of Life

  Fig. 1. Henri Edmond-Cross, Before The Storm, The Bather, painting, 1856 Shivering, cold sweat, I feel so dead, why am I even still here and breathing? all I could hear is my mom's sobs, probably my dad staring dead at me. For days, months and now years, I could hear but I can't move a thing, but I know for sure every night I am always shivering, it feels awful yet so warm, but my cold sweats seem to ruin it all. Sometimes I can hear a very familiar heavy breaths around me, I can't feel anything but I can hear it, at night when I started to shiver, the heavy breaths would stop and I would be able to continue to sleep.       The last memory of me actually seeing things was few years ago, I have lost counts, but I was 15, my long hair was reaching my waist but it was so hard to maintain, I've been convincing my mom to cut it but my family was so against it. As a way to protest, I never tie my hair, so people around will feel bothered so much and those words "jus...