My Fictions : Ernslav V

Chapter V : Reunion Leads to Separation

I brought Seanee home, what I meant home is the Shire mansion that belongs to the Elhams, they have been expecting me and unfortunately Batta has been sent to a boarding school and now the house is just another lonely one house that I always see around, people send their kids away to protect them from riots but now the riots had ended but I think the people still prefer to keep their kids away. Johanne saw me bringing a girl home and her expression is not what I would like to see, "you.. a friend ?" Johanne aske with a nervous tone, "yes? no? more than that Jo, I told you before" I said, 

"oh .. oh dear I am so sorry, Seanee isn't it? beautiful, yes of course you've sent me the letter but I was.. dealing with things" Johanne changed her tone but she still looks nervous, I hold Seanee's hand and we both are taking a tour around the house and the well-finished backyard, also Batta's room, "everything is too well, I can't imagine people can still manage to keep whole situation here seems peace despite the fact that the riots existed but of course now it's gone" Seanee said, trying to compliment the condition around the household but Joanne's face still looks nervous although she smiles a little. "you look very beautiful, where do you came from?" Joanne quickly changes the topic. 

"Is she resents me? my appearance? my presence here?" Seanee asked me while we walk around, "no, you are nuts if you think that way, she probably is having some problems within her company, you know how an entrepreneur is" I tried to calm her down. 

it has been three days and it is time for Seanee to go home, her parents missed her and she's focusing on her last project to graduate, she will succeed and I just knew it. 

Jo comes to me by grabbing my arm harshly, I look into her eyes with resentment and pull my arm away, "what was that?" I shouted a little, "I heard an unpleasant news back in hometown" Jo explains, "what? Micae's wives are dead? good" I said, "no, worse. it's about you and my friend" Jo said, she continues "you certainly remember about my friend whom you fucked well enough that she knocked up! she has your child all this time! her husband divorced her after revealing his child's different appearance, I heard about her sudden pregnancy few months after you quit counseling with her, she told me that it was her husband's even though her husband arrived in Romania during her 4 month pregnancy, she probably had sex with her husband quickly and waited for a right time to tell him that she has his child but apparently her child is a blondie! congratulations on your stupid act" Johanne shouts, I stand still hoping that what she said was just a joke. 

I lay on my bed and close my eyes, I can't believe all these stuff and ask Johanne to set an arrangement for me and Diana.

I have to tell this to Seanee, I certainly can't lie to her, but not now, she's on her last project and I can't ruin that. 

Diana comes with her same style and closed chest this time, she walks charmly and her face starts to show wrinkles with details, "I.. heard about.." she said but I cut her words by "please sit down, it's been a long time" I look into her eyes as if nothing bad had happened. 

I like having a child because I do like children but I don't like betraying someone I love,

"is it? it's mine?" I asked, "yes, it's a boy and he looks exactly like you, that's why.. my husband, ex husband argued about it" she explained, 

"his name is Bernhard, Bernhard Carl Hurffman. he's at the hotel with my daughter, Malhee. I'm sorry I left you, I can't put you up to my complicated family. my husband, Charles impregnated 3 women during the first months of our marriage, I remember their names, Lisa, Alexa and Portaer. it was an act of.. against our marriage, our marriage was not based on love and we didn't even had our first night together, it was a highly arranged marriage, we both hated it, also we were both 15. its not just Charles who did such act, I did too by going to my lover Henry and got pregnant with him, Henry died due to an accident after I bore his child whom I named Manton.

Charles brought 3 children from his lovers as ours, so we basically have 4 children without having sex to each other at all. see how complicated that is?, we isolated ourselves from other families to avoid rumours. I loved Charles' children like I love my own biological child with Henry, but it devastated me knowing Henry's sudden death that all of the children including my own are breastfed by our servants. Terry, Alfred, Jared and Manton. 

Anyway, few years later, me and Charles finally had sex and I bore him twins, Clara and Malhee, then few years later I bore him our last child whose name is Lena, she.. she died still as an infant. due to a small plague, Clara and Jared died too, since their deaths, me and Charles are no longer together even though we still had a bound.

Terry, Alfred and Manton have grown ups and married already so they live separately, there were only me, Charles, and Malhee at home.

You remember I was 48 years old when I conceived Bernhard, at that old age, people wonder of course. I had to had sex with Charles when he visited me in Romania even though he had a problem with having an erection and also the fact that we weren't together anymore at that time, it was hard to do and the sperms came out a little so it was surprising when he heard that I got pregnant, of course it was a delightful news for him but now, not anymore".

I can't lie, that was a really complicated story and now I understand why she wasn't really brokenhearted when her husband impregnated other women because herself was pregnant by other man too, also they didn't love each other so that makes in sense a little. 

"I care for your story, but it was pretty selfish to keep Bernhard for yourself, and now I don't know what to tell to Seanee" I told her, 

"she's beautiful I heard. have you told her about us?" she asked, 

"yes I have, but she has no idea that I have a child with you". 

I immediately call Seanee and explain to her about all of this, she was surprised and hung the phone quickly, I am highly confuse about what to do now but I'm surely need to see Bernhard, my child. 

In the hotel's front yard, I see black-haired tall women with a fine lacey dress holding a toddler with light blond hair just like mine, exactly like mine, his eyes look like his mother but the nose and lips resemble me a little, the women who is holding Bernhard is now handing him to me, "I'm Malhee, Bernhard is.. yours, I suppose" she said with a bright smiling face. 

I spend the rest of the day with Bernhard but he tends to be quiet and I don't know if that's a sign if he likes me or not, then Diana comes and take him from me, he quickly smiles when he sees her. While staring at both Diana and Bernhard, I see that although Diana gets older and now aged 50, she still looks so beautiful and somehow younger than most 50 year old women, she has a curly and long black hair, pale skin with natural blushes on her face, she also has a slim hourglass figure, I have seen what's behind that fine dress and I miss seeing it again, feeling it all over again, I realise that I have to go home and to think about everything. 

While in my bedroom, I try to call Seanee and she answers but hangs up repeatedly which is somehow funny to me. I know that Seanee and I are not going to make it happen, we are a new couple, we had seen each other for only two months and I hope she has not developed any further feeling for us. 

for few weeks, Diana comes with Bernhard and Malhee to the Shire mansion, to spend times with us, it's nice to get to know Bernhard every second as he is starting to look comfortable with me. Then I receive a letter from Seanee. 

That night, I feel terrible for not sending her a letter regarding the complete explanation that I supposed to tell to her, she explains in the letter how she couldn't manage a relationship with a man who surprisingly has a hidden child with another woman, I understand now and as the closure of the letter, she said that she should starts to seeing others. 

While trying to go on with my life, not planning anything at all, I try to focus on Bernhard and even bringing him to my class, introducing him to students' gathering and he spends most of his time with me now than with his mother. 

Diana is focusing on decorating her new office here, starting her new life and Malhee has to go back to Germany soon as her father misses her. 

While visiting her office with Bernhard, he starts to cry begging for a milk as he keeps pointing at Diana's chest, "excuse me" Diana said while holding him and opens her upper blouse, she pulls out her one breast and breastfeeds Bernhard. seeing her breastfeeding someone in an office is giving me a flashback like when we used to do it, its horrible to imagine such thing right now.

I look around her office while she's still breastfeeding Bernhard then he fell asleep and she puts him on a coach with her one breast still seen and swinging as she moves, her nipple looks bigger and darker now with a little glimpse of wetness around it, she caughts me staring at her breast then she closes her chest. I sit on the coach near Bernhard to calm myself from imagining her breasts, i close my vital with a pillow so it is not seen that I'm getting an erection, she comes back with two glasses of water, and she looks at me smiling, "youre okay?" she asked, i feel a little bit tensed and i only nod. 

while talking about my work and hers, I finally have the courage to ask her "when you approached me, you know.. how Bernhard happened? did you do it because you like me or?", "I did it because.. if I tell you this, nothing is going to change between us, okay?", I nodded. "I was lonely and.." she said while approaching me, she takes my hand and put it to her chest, she approaches my face and I look away "you're going to leave me again" I said, still looking away, "what? no, why would I do that? nothing is stopping me. you know why I had to leave you, now it's different, I..ah I'm sorry for giving you much burden with.. my presence and with Bernhard, I ruined your relationship and all. I'm no longer young, I deserve all this and you need to go on with your life, you're still too young to stuck with me, an old woman of nothing" she gets up and goes to her desk, I chase her and hold her waist and sneak my hand onto her vital, she turns around and kissing me, we continue to make out and she sits on the desk, open up her thighs while opening her underpants while I open my pants' zipper then enter her slowly, she holds a little pain probably because her vital still dries but then I penetrate fully and continuously while also ripping her blouse open and suckle on her breast, drinking her precious breast milk while penetrating harshly, it's so good and I don't want to stop at all, she moans but trying to hold it so Bernhard wouldn't wake up by our "activity", "it's been a long time" I said with heavy breaths after releasing my mouth from her wet and reddish nipple, our heavy breaths rhyme with my penetration that is getting harsh and faster until I finally finish inside her, I kiss her lips then pull out, she still feel stiff physically and keep her thighs wide open and I can see my sperm come out from her vital, it looks wonderful and I approach her breast to suck on it again, this time takes a long time because I feel so thirsty I feel the need to drink something out of her, I suck so hard that I can feel her milk flows harshly onto my thirsty mouth but then I feel myself getting an erection again so I point my vital and enter her again, I can see my vital looks a bit dirty from my previous sperm that's still inside her, I pull and enter repeatedly slowly then fastly that a clapping sounds can be heard, she looks exhausted but I don't care, I feel so turned on and continuously doing it while staring at her reddish nipple, shaking breasts and sweating exhausted face, I lend my body onto hers to be pressed on the table, for the last seconds, I penetrate very roughly and come out inside her again signed with my satisfied voice that sounds like someone has been stabbed on the chest. 

she lays still on the table and still with her thighs wide open, I lay beside her and kissing her while my hand plays with her highly wet vital.

A satisfaction that I can finally get again, then suddenly we hear Bernhard's movement and we quickly get our clothes on. "shit, you ripped all the buttons!" Diana said while trying to fix her blouse. 

This night I can't get to sleep, I can close my eyes but I can't get my mind rests well, it's been a week since I have started to have an actual relationship with Diana although most of it is gained by our sexual activity. Tonight she sleeps naked besides me after we had sex for hours, and before that, I told her about my family history and somehow she encouraged me to maintain a good relationship with my family in Romania which is an impossible thing to do. 

Recently, she tends to wear something transparent around her chest or blouses with lower cut to show her breasts, I didn't feel jealous when other men stare at her, it makes me feel like a winner, I have what they don't have but it feels wrong and I'm not sure about how I feel on her. 

Bernhard loves to pull my hair as he feels like I'm more like him so he feels more comfortable now which is somehow not a good thing, what if he becomes racist? and only like someone who look like him? then I told Diana to teach him about the cruelty of slavery and other prosecution of human races but then she got offended saying that I would be leaving her by telling something that she has to do in the future by herself. 

Every night, Diana always sleeps with me, and at morning, she slips down to my vital and starts waking it up by licking, sucking the tip, then goes up and down with her mouth until I have climax, she swallows all of it and sometimes at night, I would sneak to her breast and sucking her nipple to drink her breast milk, of course after all those kinds of activity, we would end up having sex repeatedly due to my .. ability to easily get erects after climaxes which is a daily compliment that I get from her. 

"I see, you are having a relationship now, eh?" Johanne comments on my daily basis with Diana recently although I didn't live in the Shire mansion but sometimes she visits me when she goes to the city, and she always see Diana is staying in my basement apartment. 

"so?" I asked, "it feels so weird, seeing my old friend is having an affair with my loveliest cousin, when are you going to get marry anyway? aren't you sick of hearing rumours?" Jo tries to reminds me about rumours spreading around about a widow and a lecturer which is basically me and Diana. 

"you know her reputation, she has a good reputation on her career but opposite to her marriage" Jo explains, "she.. is not a loyal women, Slav", "how do you know?" I asked trying to defend Diana, "she is my friend but you are my family. she didn't tell everything wasn't she?", "her explanation was long enough for a full presentation" I told her, "I'm talking about her relationship after her complicated act against her marriage, she started to mend her relationship with Charles after Henry's death, yeah she bore twins then after that, she wouldn't breastfeed the twins at all, and apparently she had an affair with her neighbour whose age is 40 years older than her, he is her patient after all, and her office is like their nest. they had their affair for a year then she met Terry's friend whose name is Gerald, Gerald sometimes visits her office without Terry and he wasn't even a patient, I knew all these after she told me about the DNA test revealing you're the one who impregnated her, if only I knew sooner then I would have not sent you to consult with her. she also confessed to me why she can't keep serious with Charles, it's because he has a dysfunction erection, he was highly fertile and wild, you do know Charles impregnated three women at the same month? but now his body.. changed. Look, I'm saying she might be serious with you and it's because .. you're good at it, maybe? but after you're done then it's done, she's a hyper Slav, open your eyes!" Jo explains. "why didn't you tell me this earlier?!" I shouted, "I thought you would never be with her romantically, you were with Seanne and your age distance is.., I thought the thing you had with her was like one night stand and then here you are with her and all". 

I have a friend in the same university who taught psychology, his name is Marcus, I told him about my relationship with Diana and ask for an advice, "Slav, I don't know how to say this to you, but all this time, you're the one who .. how to say it? trapped? yes you have been trapped. you stay loving bernhard, he is your son and he knows nothing but Diana? she's the one who seemed beg for it, you gave it to her then she kept the baby to herself, also she's the one who called off everything with you even your consult, which is unethical for a psychology like her. hear me Slav, she doesn't need you, she needs you because your strength at sex, besides that? no. it's your choice now if you want to stay with her or not. i mean did she even ever talk to you as a lover? not as a sex partner, did she ever say that she loves you? or that she wants..", "no yeah I get it, I understand" I try to calm myself and go back to my apartment. 

If I try to think, maybe they're right, I didn't even feel jealous when others stare at her, I don't feel afraid to lose her, and I don't feel like I'm having a bound with her. 

I come to her office this night and she looks surprised, then she closes the door, I tell to her "we need to talk about something", but then she opens her blouse and reveals both of her busty and bouncy breasts with pointy nipples, I feel a quick hard on myself and she sees it, she pulls me onto the table and pull my pants, she goes down on me, I want to stop but somehow I just can't, I'm too weak to hold such thing. After she's done with my highly hard vital, she pushes me to lay on the table and she goes up on me then put my vital into hers and she continues with up and down motion while moaning, I see her shaking breast and pull both into my mouth, she leans herself to me while I'm sucking her breast milk with her waist going up and down on my vital until I finally come out. "how many rounds do we have to do tonight?" she laughs knowing that I would get an erection minutes after this, but then I push her away and zip my pants, "I'm serious, we need to talk about something, about us" I told her, she closes her blouse and sit on the coach, "what?" her voice turns cold, "do you even love me?" I ask her straight to the point, "ah .. what kind of question is that? of course I do, well do you?" she answers, "or am I just a sex slave to you?" I asked, "you're ridiculous!" she shouts, "what's going to happen to me if I have the same case as charles? dysfunction erection eh?" I shouted, "you're no loyal, Diana. you had affairs with an old man and then your own son's friend, then me? congratulations to me because you feel stuck with me because of Bernhard", "so you don't want Bernhard?" she changes topic, "I do want him! if you're taking him away again this time, I swear to god..", "what? you're no one in this" she said which is a surprising answer, "I am his father, he has my hair" I shouted, "you didn't even know, all I know is that he's blond, you do want to know the truth then? well here you go! my client was not just you that year, I was so lonely and the only one who felt so good was you, and you're the one with the blond hair too anyway so Bernhard is definitely yours" she explained, what? did she just say that she fucked all of her clients?, "wow.. not just me eh? shit! Diana! SHIT!”.

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