I hate having dreams, unless they're good ones of course. Most of the times, it is just abstract and nightmares, and if I'm that superstitious, I would say, some things may easily communicate with me through the dreams. If I'm also that believer to a science, I would say, my daily activities have been too overwhelming, my brain could not stop working even when I'm sleeping (it is a fact indeed).
Enough blabbering, my good copings for years have been writing, lots of writing, mostly fiction, but right now I want to write something that has happened within my head while I was unconscious. I need to give context of course, I have been working non stop for the last few months, it is my second job since before I've had my bachelor graduation. This time, involves documents and lots of relearning that I have to do with the 9th edition of the MLA citation style, the media literacy, and academic integrity that I have to set up for this new school, I play a very important part but everyone seems to look down on me, not knowing about my capability that much, I don't want to blame them, they came from different backgrounds that has different views and involvement with the libraries.
Today, I happen to finish 2 heavy documents and wrapping the library books with mika plastics, I just need to elaborate a bit to my leaders and conducting it later on, so that means I have my free time to write this blog, finally.
The Dream
I had the dream approximately around 8 to 10 PM last night, which is on October 31st. I woke up thankfully due to my fiance's calling because our sleep video call was off, mine particularly because I forgot to charge it throughout the night.
The dream was dystopian, two siblings, brother and sister from what I've remembered, I was there as a watcher, a third point of view, not enjoying any bits of it because everything seems so gory. There are too much people being crucified, but they are all dead already before finally the first sibling let out a fire that burned the whole victims.
At first, I thought the first sibling killed them all, I blame him for it, loathing that character so much. The first sibling has a fire element power, but the second one has nothing at all, it seems the fire element was a gift, not everyone has it. The first sibling burned them all, the crucified victims, all of them are covered in red hood, there were blood dripping from their hands and legs, and throughout the pathways, victims are carefully placed to be like the flower arrangements.
Somehow, the first sibling decided to burn them all, from the closest to the furthest one, making it become a bunch of burned huge cross along the pathways, with this monster waiting for them in the end, it is a fat guy, very huge and fat, no clothes on but he had some kind of fabric to cover his private parts, and he was ready to bash the siblings, the first sibling seems to protect the second one with his lashing fiery hands and ready to fight..
*alarm from my phone indicating my fiance has called me, it was around 10 PM.
I'm glad he called me, otherwise I'm stuck to that horrible dream. I decided to open the chatGPT, with a prompt of "what does god indicates with a dream filled with people crucified and fire elements everywhere". Sometimes I do believe God tries to tell me things through my dreams, sometimes I just think those dreams are abstracts, an experiment done by my brain to keep it active at night, to keep me away from dementia at early age hopefully.
The following paragraphs are the generated answer from the chatGPT, and I will quote them here
Dreams of people being crucified and surrounded by fire can carry intense and layered meanings, often influenced by one’s personal beliefs, emotional state, or cultural background.
1. **Religious Interpretation**: In Christian symbolism, crucifixion represents suffering, sacrifice, or redemption. Dreaming of people being crucified could signify feelings of guilt, a need for redemption, or a call to confront aspects of self-sacrifice in your life. Fire in religious contexts often represents purification, transformation, or judgment, hinting that the dream could be calling attention to something in your life that needs renewal or cleansing.
2. **Psychological Insight**: From a psychological perspective, the dream might indicate emotional turmoil, suffering, or feeling judged or persecuted. Fire, representing intense emotions, could signify repressed anger, passion, or a need for release. The crucifixion scene may reflect feelings of isolation, burden, or a need for release from a “cross to bear” in your life.
3. **Transformation Symbol**: In many cultures, fire symbolizes transformation and rebirth, similar to the myth of the phoenix. Seeing people in a state of crucifixion amid flames could suggest that parts of yourself, or aspects of your life, are going through a painful yet transformative phase that will ultimately lead to growth or change.
4. **Collective or Archetypal Meaning**: According to Carl Jung's theories, dreams with symbolic elements like crucifixion and fire might reflect archetypal themes. This could indicate a deep internal struggle or a collective experience of suffering, potentially tied to your subconscious processing of societal or spiritual themes.
If this dream recurs, or if it leaves a strong impression, journaling or discussing it with someone who can offer perspective may help clarify any underlying messages.
("What Does God")
I am interested with the psychological meaning, it is similar to the religious factor, but I think it does have a specific meaning with a huge anger within me lately, or for months. I can never be a positive person no matter how hard I try, the best thing I did was to see things for a reason, of everything is God's purpose, and also to see that I am just a tiny atom for this whole galaxy, I am nothing but a dot, and I think not even a dot, something you cannot see through a naked eye, must be through a microscope.
The anger, the sorrowness, the feel that I can never survive without my loved one has driven me to an unaliving thoughts, I thought of killing myself soon as I have lose the fear of pain in death. That again, would make me look weak, I don't like looking weak, I don't like looking vulnerable and mentally ill because I am not. I have everything in life and I should be grateful, for a second thought, I'm also terrified of death when I'm in the best moment of my life. Dramatic, I know, but I will never be selfish, people loved me, my friends, my coworkers need me, my workplace needs me, my family loves me, my cats still need me and last, the best of all, is my fiancee, he needs me.
Anyway, the feel of distant to God has been reappearing, indicating that I should praise him more, He notices my weaknesses, my anger and sorrow. This seems very narcissistic, the meaning of my dream could be of anything related to this universe, not just me.
I have had many terrible dreams, sometimes it has meanings like ghost or something, I do believe that, but also a mix of my fear before sleep or waking up midnight.
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